No One Is Coming
I am on a more ‘ holistic ‘ track these days, regarding approaches to medical treatment…
this is not because I came into the world– with an understanding of things- such as how our bodies store information;
whether through an experience, feeling, memory, or thought(s)
And thereby~ need release, for pent-up tension and pain– to give it more space, other than solely within us- to exist,
And perhaps, by honoring the ailments for what they are; while actively remaining devoted to doing everything within our power we can; to tend to, nurture, restore, and survive for the sake of ourselves and the ” best ” life we’re capable of living,
under the scrutiny of our circumstances, then it offers to an extent– some – of our power back.
I had to earn this knowledge by constant failure, trial, and error– almost to death-
But I’ve learned that the recognition itself is not enough- the body and psyche essentially believe the messages they receive.
For example, I haven’t always possessed what many refer to as my ‘strength’ that I do today~ but as I’ve battled on throughout all the fights within this ring that is called life,
I’ve decided to believe: I have what it takes, to always get back up, one time more than I’ll ever be knocked down- I’ve fought too hard to exist,
And find meaning despite a dysfunctional body- so just because it’s hard doesn’t mean our lives or living them isn’t worthwhile.
I’ve vowed to myself to make damn sure it is!
That took and continues to take conscious work on my end to come to that conclusion and it proves to be a daily decision I must make – do I continue pushing what can feel like indestructible boulders – or – give into doubt and fear that I cannot go on past this point.
The two main reasons I’ve mostly left the concept of mainstream or traditional medicine behind are as follows ~
I’ve tried just about ‘everything’, it’s to the point I show up for appointments at the pain clinic, and they have almost nothing to suggest, let alone offer me, because I am not physically able to optimally nor successfully reap any benefits but rather further complications
There are pros/cons to every decision in regards to the pursuit of our well being… Someone else, despite their credentials or education– doesn’t necessarily deem them an “expert” as it pertains to US and what WE need- that’s what makes our own participation in our wellness so important, we’ll always be our own best advocate + doctor but whether we proactively step into those responsibilities boils down to a personal choice.
Tremendously egregious occurrences have happened to me throughout the health-care system (more times than I’m able to count, really)
And I know I’m not the only one.
I share without holding back– due to the fact- what I’ve endured could prevent another from encountering the same.
The other reasoning that led to my dismissal of modern day care is: after a decade and a half of receiving tri-monthly injections, my world was flipped upside down… Bad batch, cheap filler,. allergic reaction???
Your guess is as good as mine, nevertheless I’d picked my poison + it poisoned me, causing severe effects I’m living with to this day, which is only on TOP , of the pre-existing conditions that’ve accompanied me all the days even before then.
An analogy I’ve often used is that of building a home on the shoreline– if I settle down somewhere that’s known for tropical storms and when the weather turns, my house is then carried off into sea – how many times am I to rebuild prior to the acceptance and comprehension, that’s not the safest nor most secure option?
I feel the exact same as it relates to pursuing health management…
How many more times, are we to allow our lives to be in control of someone outside of ourselves? Releasing absolutely all of our power to a system that isn’t operating with our interests at the core. . Between the authorization and insurance hoops, to the maze we must navigate for eligibility– sometimes requiring attempting/failing options multiple times- even to the point they essentially dangle remedies in front of our faces, only to keep them inaccessible or completely take them away altogether- there comes a point we must acknowledge: none of this is working so it’s time to put in the work and come to our own rescue.
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About the Author: Mia Maysack lives with chronic migraine, cluster headache and fibromyalgia. She is an award winning author and health-care reform advocate; the founder of Keepin’ Our Heads Up, a support network, Peace & Love, a life coaching practice and Still We Rise, an organization to alleviate and liberate pain of all kinds throughout global communities. https://stillwerise.net/
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